After 4 weeks of external training and 'honeymooning', its time to get my hands on proper work. I HATE to admit that I am beginning to experience that 'wee' bit of stress and loads of pressure.. pressure to perform. Not that my colleagues have been nasty or anything near to that effect. On the contrary, the team have been awesome! I am grateful towards Christine for being so ever willing to share her knowledge, Eddie for his patience with my endless and seemingly dumb questions, and of course Karin for always being so assuring with her comforting words of encouragement.
Since beginning of this week, my mood was unpredictable like the weather in London. It is largely dependent on how I evaluate my own performance at work. Today was ok,.. yesterday was awful (fell into deep depression). I can literally feel my emotions racing up and plunging down like the 'Lethal Weapon' rollercoaster ride in Gold Coast. :*(
Though I had enjoyable moments here, I couldn't really enjoy London without having this nagging pressure to meet up to expectations at work (which I believe is NORMAL) whenever I'm out 'having fun'. At times, even stay in during weekend to mug boring manuals.. *YAaawn**
Anyway, really looking forward to Emily coming to stay over for the Friday weekend. Also, will be expecting Tunleng to arrive next weekend and we will go travelling to Paris the following week! Woohoo~~~~~ Champs Elysees here I come!!!
Meanwhile, though I am not dying to go back, I miss everything back home in Singapore - my beloved family, fun-loving friends and of course the FOOD! I miss my Soya Bean drink, Jolly Bean, Mr Bean.. *sob sob*.
I know I do have friends who can't wait for my return too! Erhm... not for my company,.. but for the shopping list they have given me before my departure.. sigh.. some great friends I have!
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